I am a 20-year-old boy. I have never had a serious relationship with a girl and I have never had s*x before.
My question is, would girls be turned off by my virginity? Should I
just get it out of the way or is it okay to keep waiting as long as I
have to? When I do finally meet the “right” girl should I tell her or
keep it a secret? All this wondering just drives me nuts.
I have never met a girl who would dislike a guy for being a virgin,
but all my stupid guy friends think I’m weird and that I’d be more of a
man if I just got it over with, even if it doesn’t mean anything. I feel
all this pressure from society that I can’t wait just because I’m not
supposed to. I’m afraid what if I don’t meet the right person ever, I
don’t want to be the 40 year old virgin.
Here’s the ultimate irony, and a really humiliating story, but I’m
telling it: sometimes when I’m alone and feeling lonely I want s*x so
bad I can’t stand it, I feel like I’m going to explode. To the point
where I look on social network (facebook) for hookups and then feel
great shame after. But when I actually had a chance to get it out of the
way last 2 years, I didn’t do it because I didn’t feel anything for the
girl, it would have just been a meaningless hook-up.
I got scared and couldn’t do it and ran away. I felt like the biggest
loser in the world. I want to feel like it’s okay to wait, but
practically everything else in the world is telling me it isn’t. I am
now in a university in Malaysia and almost all my friends are calling me
names, insulting me even to the extent of paying for prostitutes for me
to have s*x with but i keep on avoiding, Please help me.
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